'there are rewards,' said the prophet, 'for all endowed with fresh and tender hearts'  •  anyone who kills a sparrow for nothing, it will cry to god against him on the day of resurrection  •  there would enter paradise a people whose hearts would be like the hearts of birds  •  righteousness is that about which the heart and soul feels tranquil  •  there is none among believers who plants a tree or sows a seed from which a bird or person or animal eats but that it is regarded as a charity of him
Home  •  30 June 2008

This is the house; our house. Now mostly my children's house. The one about which I am trying to decide what, exactly, to do.







This is more or less the state it was in when last I saw it: a mountain of cement and steel, rough not only around the edges but in the centers too, although slowly coming together with the touches that convert industrial messes into welcoming homes. The coating of sand and grit on the floors was replaced with ceramic and porcelain tiles; rough gaping window and door ways found themselves framed and awaiting glass panes.







It is on a quiet street, dirt paved, in Abu Sulaiman, an area with which we both found fault -- my husband because it is too far from the heart of the city; myself because the city's edges encroach too near. But then there is this ...







They -- my in-laws -- tell me it is finished, though I've not seen yet myself.















I assume the outer stucco work is done, though I do not ask. In part because I try to avoid the subject of the house altogether most days, and in part because I do not know the Arabic for "stucco" to be able to ask at all.











Instead they tell me about the tomatoes they are growing there, about the roses and screening trees, because they are really telling me it is right for me, right for my children, that we should come and come soon, we all can live there and make things easy to one another. Because they know I like growing things and so they grow things for me.







But it is not something easy, even to go back at all. Not yet.








Odds & Ends  •  19 June 2008

My son pulled my arm to his chest in his sleep, his tiny hands loose but firm in their intent, his breath falling neatly in puffs in the cup of my hand. A year and still there are moments small and new. And I put this away in my memories: a thing to recall when my abdominals ache under his weight and the stretch of the girth of the burden of his sibling, when my hips are pained but I dare not even turn in bed if I do not wish to see him wake, when I fret and worry about what it might be like with two so young. Breaths in the palm, first tentative steps, a lopsided smile cocked to the same angle as mine. Sometimes it's all easy. Sometimes.

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